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… and other quotes like this are running through my head today.
“If I thought you were no good, I’d gently tell you to keep the day job” said Linda.
Not sure why this sort of stuff comes on me as I plan to take some time and “really write”.
“Yeah, but when I did web design, I really didn’t care if people used it or changed it or whatever. I did it because I loved doing it. And it didn’t matter after that.” I said.
“But with writing, it really makes a difference when people read it” I continued. “And if people don’t read it then I don’t feel as inspired to write. So I must not really love to write like I am supposed to.”
Well, it made sense to me when I said it. And how this translates into whether or not I have any talent writing is quite another thing.
Insecurity, meet thy home.
I saw this really cool picture today on the internet, so I thought I would include it in today’s musings.
It was from an article about this sign going viral. And somehow, even though I spent the day doing research for names for writing … and taking pictures for future writing … and talking about my writing … I somehow am thinking I am not worthy of the task of writing.
Do other people have this kind of insecurity about the whole thing?
So all these folks say I have some talent here, but somehow I am telling myself it isn’t true.
“You all are saying that because you are my friend.” I said to Linda as we entered town. “You really don’t think I have talent … do you?”
Granted, it was a feeble attempt at fishing for a compliment. But I really have no clue.
OK.
Truth? I have a clue. I’m just too afraid to believe it.
Fear really sucks.
especially when it is fear of the possibility of success (where would you fit success in your neatly ordered little world of doubt to avoid the commitment to the effort) 😉
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