… and how wonderful is this?
For those of my friends who know me well they may find this hard to believe … but here it is … almost the end of the day … and I have not spoken a word. Not only that, but I have enjoyed almost total silence this whole day.
The phone has not rung. Neither have I made any calls.
Nobody has visited. Neither have I gone out into the world.
There have been no messages, IM’s or texts from anyone. Neither have I messaged, IM’ed or texted.
There is no sound of radio, nor television, nor flash animations, nor you tube videos, nor digital sounds … nothing.
I have not posted to my private blog, neither have I read anyone else’s blog.
I have not begun any projects, neither have I feverishly finished any overdue projects.
True silence is the rest of the mind; it is to the spirit what sleep is to the body, nourishment and refreshment.
What have I done, you ask?
I have thought.
I have meditated.
I have prayed.
I have remembered.
I have taken a leisurely shower with no hurry to finish.
I have made a singular cup of coffee and mentally thanked the people at Keurig for making something that suits me so perfectly.
I have wandered slowly about the house and enjoyed the way it now looks.
I silently gave thanks for those friends who encouraged me to begin the renovation that allowed it to look this way … and who helped me to do it all along the way.
I picked up the few things that were in need of being put away … and put them away.
I have marveled at how perfect the house now is for me … and me alone.
I have allowed the dishwasher to clean all the dishes to be done … and thought how blessed I am to not have to wash them by hand.
I have cooked a nourishing meal … eaten it … and allowed myself to have a second helping.
I have considered myself fortunate … as I wrapped that which was left to save for another meal … that I have food to eat and a roof over my head.
I have read Facebook, but have not posted. Much.
I have read my emails, but have not responded. At all.
I have caught up on current events and laughed at the top quotes of the year.
I have allowed myself to play Sudoku, Solitaire, Mah-Johng … and a few Jigsaw Puzzles … all on the PC. Then allowed myself to take pleasure in the winning and completion of these things.
I let my mind wander … to those things that I might write about … in a novel perhaps … or a future blog entry.
And experienced gratitude at the freedom I have to write whatever I want … in whatever manner I choose to write.
I know all of this might sound terribly mundane to you … but to me it was refreshing … healing … relaxing … unexpected … and totally enjoyable.
It certainly was not what I intended from the onset of the day. But it was the way things turned out.
I am grateful for all that is in my life at this point.
The people, the beauty, the memories, the health … and the future that lies ahead.
It is, for me, the joy of the journey.
Not merely an absence of noise, Real Silence begins when a reasonable being withdraws from the noise in order to find peace and order in his inner sanctuary.